For once in my life, I can honestly say that I stood up for myself came out on top. And it really wasn't that painful!
Last Thursday, our cross country coach listed off the individuals who were going to travel to compete in this weekend's Great Lakes Valley Conference Cross Country Championship. Knowing that I had worked hard over the whole summer and that coach never said directly that he was going to travel only seven individuals, I was confident that I was going to travel with the team to this meet. (For those of you who are unfamiliar with cross country, you need seven runners to compete in a race; the top five score, and the other two serve as back-ups in case someone in the top five chokes or just has a bad race.) So when practice rolled around and coach listed off the names of the individuals, I kept listening attentively until I would hear my name, and then breathe with a sigh of relief. Well, that moment never came. I was speechless. I had a feeling that maybe he might make cuts for the travel squad for the meet, but I knew that more than likely he would travel me because I busted my ass off in practice every day. I waited for him to potentially correct himself by saying "Oh yah, and I almost forgot you Coz!", but that didn't happen either.
Needless to say, when we began our lite run for the evening, I kind of went off on my own. How could this happen to me? Even though coach was traveling eight individuals instead of seven, the seventh and eighth man on the team were so close in practice and in races that he needed to wait one more meet before he made the final cuts for the NCAA regional meet (at conference meets, you can run at least nine individuals in the race). I was the odd man out, at least that is what I believed. I felt so cold and alone, and I just wanted to feel sorry for myself.
Luckily, one of my fellow teammates, Cory, caught up with me on the run and acknowledged the fact that I was one of the hardest workers on the team and that I certainly deserved to compete at our conference meet. He also suggested that I go and talk to coach about the situation; I really had nothing to lose.
So the next morning, I went into coach's office, and stated my case. Much to my delight, coach recognized that I was one of the hardest workers on the men's team and that "in his heart," he wanted me to go, but, "as an administrator," he had to draw a line, especially when it came to budget issues and the like with the athletic department. So I told him I understood and thanked him for the opportunity for the past three years to let me run cross country and how much the sport has changed my life. After it was all said and done, coach said that he would have a decision for me later that day at practice.
When practice rolled around, I did not decide to address the issue because I wanted to wait until after Saturday's workout for him to change his mind. Saturday was going to be a challenging day, considering the fact that we were doing repeat miles on the track (4). Thank God, I had a great workout that day, and coach even gave me a compliment. I tried asking him again about his final decision, but I spoke so softly that he didn't hear me, and so I decided to wait until Monday's practice because Monday was going to be a moderate type of workout.
So after Monday's practice, I finally went up to coach and asked him what his final decision was. "Yah, you're going." Justice had been served! It was an awesome feeling, and I let out a yelp of jubilation when no one was looking. My hard work and confidence worked out for me, and now I will be counting down the hours until the gun goes off at 8:30 on Saturday morning.
The bottom line is that sometimes I think God reminds us that we are in control of our own destiny. Even though some things may not work out the way we want them to, we should still try our best to do what we think is right if we believe we are being short-changed. I did that, and it paid off. Thanks Coach Massoels! You won't be disappointed.